“In the presence of eternity, the mountains are as transient
as the clouds.”

– Robert Green Ingersoll

You’re not the only one who gets discouraged.  I do.

You’re not the only one who works too hard and too long knowing the striving may not be coming from a noble place.  I do.

You’re not the only one who stares at a list of things that have to get done or else something bad is going to happen, but procrastinates anyway.  I do.

You’re not the only one who can’t wait to be alone to relax or to get things done, but when you are alone …can’t sit still or can’t get moving.  I do.

You’re not the only one who can’t completely leave the past.  I can’t.You’re not the only one who needs a little more assurance.  I do.

You’re not the only one who doesn’t take corrective words from others as well as you’d like to think you do.  I don’t.

You’re not the only one who gets mad at God.  I do.You’re not the only one who gets worn down by life.  I do.

You’re not the only one who says things you wish you hadn’t.  I do.You’re not the only one who knows you aren’t everything some people think you are.  I know.You’re not the only one who wishes you were a better friend.  I wish I were.

You’re not the only one who has times of being afraid.  I do.

You’re not the only one who is confused about the difference between God’s part and my own part.  I am.

You’re not the only one who wishes you were a better husband and father or wife and mother.  I wish I were.

You see, “We have this treasure from God, but we are like clay jars that hold the treasure. This shows that the great power is from God, not from us.  We have troubles all around us, but we are not defeated.  We do not know what to do, but we do not give up the hope of living.  We are persecuted, but God does not leave us.  We are hurt sometimes, but we are not destroyed.  We carry the death of Jesus in our own bodies so that the life of Jesus can also be seen in our bodies.”  2 Corinthians 4:7 New Century Version

You are not alone.  Though our lives are different, our journeys are similar. Our persevering with Jesus through troubles, confusion, oppression and wounding actually spotlights the treasure of God’s life and His glory in us.From one not-defeated, hopeful, not-abandoned, not-destroyed clay jar to another,


Posted by Gary Barkalow on Oct 7, 2010 in BlogGary | 27 comments

Over the years I have met many gifted, aware, devoted people who felt lost, stuck or paralyzed in the pursuit of their calling. Then, of course, I have my own paralysis. Every story and conversation about this issue has caused me to ask “why”.

We have all acted out of what we have believed (be it falsehood or truth) or what we have owned about ourselves at a deep heart level. So, I have scribbled down a few ideas that I will think will help to counter the debilitating ideas that float around concerning the issue of calling.

Go with what you know. You are only responsible for what you currently know, keeping in mind that what you know is partial and incomplete. Walk in the clarity that God has given you – only then will He give you more.

Let go of what you don’t love. Coming to grips with what you don’t love is valuable – it’s not wasted time. We waste a lot of time and energy feeling guilty and condemned over the things that we are not passionate about.

Live like an artist. Develop and create your art simply because you love it, not for a paycheck, approval or promotion.

Keep income and calling separate in your thinking. Don’t complicate things by putting these two together. At some point, they may merge, but one must not be dependent on the other.

“Don’t let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do.”-John Wooden. Start creating and offering what God has put in you with whatever resources you have in terms available time, technology, contacts, and opportunities. Don’t wait for someone to endorse or “anoint” you, for “large” audiences, a paycheck, position, title or a degree.

God is simply asking us to live honestly and generously in the place we are already in. We must offer the brilliance, strength, beauty, abundance, and splendor God has given us. Walking in our calling does not often require a big transition or life change like quitting a job, starting something new, or living somewhere else.

The development of the weightiness of our life is of utmost importance. Growth always includes knowledge, experience/experimentation, being mentored / coached / modeled, time for assimilation and maturing (fermentation).

Don’t wait for things to be “ideal” – Don’t wait for a job or position offer, endorsements, a certain amount in savings or an inheritance, or a close community of friends and allies to begin walking out your call.

God is comfortable with your trying. God is not afraid and you are not in great danger…if your idea has passed the “moral” and “ethical” filter and you understand your role (husband / wife, father / mother, employee, etc.). Get the perspective of others. Just ask – people are always willing to lend their insight to you.

1 Samuel 10:6,7 The Spirit of the Lord will come upon you in power…and you will be changed into a different person. Once these signs are fulfilled, do whatever your hand finds to do, for God is with you.

There is a difference between waiting on God and procrastination, between moving in faith with an assurance of God’s love and striving.

Trying to understand the difference and living on the right side,